Step City

The following is the direct result of a dream I had recently about a place called 'Step City' which was full of uneasy people but was completely silent, except for the noise of footsteps.


Raven wings massage the tip of a bright white sun erased by haze.

I am starved of stars in this city.

Inhaling without contemplation, surviving without sustenance on poisoned air.

The parks are a sea of people, all trying to eat nature

Until there is nothing left to feed on.

A city of heat and hurry, no rawness, only impurity.

In a grey building, gloves are placed on,

My final meal, two hours later,

Is nothing more than stomach contents on an autopsy table.

I belong to the city now.

My undesired energy cut out of my system.

As I walk the city streets, I am sure I am screaming,

Yet only my footsteps leave an echo.

Erebus

‘As I kept climbing, there were rocks and boulders, and many of them resembled human shapes. Somebody is watching me. I had a feeling that somebody, or something, was watching me. That there was some other presence there.’

Over the last few nights, my dreams have been haunted by Mount Erebus. I say haunted, because nothing in my dreams has been clear or vivid, just elusive shadows of an eerie snow covered mountain rising before me with its steaming center both bubbling before me and within me, every lick of steam manifesting itself into the clamminess of my skin as I awake. Mount Erebus is the most southerly active volcano on earth, a real debauched example of the extreme differences of heat and chill that exist together. Last year I went through a phase of obsessing about this mountain in Antarctica and it now seems like it’s calling to me in my dreams, seeking to become vivid again, for me to tune into its frequency.

In my dreams, I am surrounded by needles that seek to inject a cold world into my veins and make my head spin in air filled with crystals that catch the light. At night, the moon and stars of the southern hemisphere do not twinkle because their light is just too intense to ever fade. The snow and ice moan as others arrive to where the cold has taken me, and together, we inhabit the caves of the mountain chiseled out by the steam of the volcano that lies beneath.

And when I wake up, it suddenly becomes clear to me. This mountain is telling me the love story that exists within it. The lure of the cold and heat that work together to make Erebus so beautiful yet interminably volatile is their inability to compromise; their constant struggle to be dominant is their lovemaking in which passion abounds and difference drives them towards a new world. This cold, dead place is caressed by flame and brought to life and, like any love story, there is hostility among the obsession. In my heart, Erebus has an existence far beyond living; a skeleton of ice with a heartbeat of molten lava erupting into the sky, coming alive under the force of tempestuous nature. In my dreams and in my waking life, Erebus is as the Greeks described it- The Underworld, where lovers' tantrums are followed by a white silence of contentedness, when a mountain of ice and fire lays still… and thinks.